#and sorry if this makes 0 sense

[akq96618]

After some rewatch, I think there's one "never mentioned" theme from king-ohger. That's "grief".

Almost all of the ranger's behaviors (both good and bad) are trauma responses. I also want to yap about how Gira goes through 5 stages of grief in the first episode and how both Himeno and Jeramie achieve the "acceptance" stage but my english isn't good enough to explain.

Don't worry! I understands what u mean, my english ain't that good either,

I had a thought about this too, every single kings deals with grief and losing dearest one, gira with losing memories of his past and don't want to lose his orphanage family, racles losing gira and his parents, rita with karras, himeno and jeramie who lost both of their parents,kaguragi who saw iroki sacrified herself for toufu, and yanma with his oldman,

And despite all of what happened to them in the past, they choose to move forward and protect what they have now, that's why i love king ohger so much .

what connected himeno and jeramie on ep 46 isn't just grodie who have a deal with them and their parents', but the weight of grief they carried their whole life, and what decision should they take in the end,

until now i still don't get it when they said 'death is the beauty of life', yeah maybe it makes us value our life more, knowing that death awaits us, but is the pain of people who being left by their beloved one is really worth it?

or maybe it's just me who haven't reached 'acceptance' stage like jeramie and himeno

here's a gira scene that got me thinking the whole day

[naarisz]

Dream in red

[abstractfrog]

SILVER BLAZE PART THREE - happy jonkday everyone. one of these days i'll draw a scene that doesn't take place at night

[hiddenfolk]

Ok so after getting to see the events of this timeline Sayaka in scene 0, I thought it might be interesting to analyse the variations in her barrier!

In timeline 3, Sayaka's conflict seems to primarily revolve around Madoka, and the shifting dynamics of her friend group. Initially, she is hurt and confused that Madoka seems to be ditching them for Homura, a girl who she's literally just met. When she discovers the truth, she is upset with Madoka for keeping her in the dark, and Homura and Mami, who she struggles to trust can keep Madoka, her eternally kind yet naive friend, safe. I think this is why this Oktavia is much pinker in palette overall.

Imo, Oktavia's timeline 3 barrier reflects Sayaka's scattering loyalties. On top, is a laser show lit in her magical girl friend's colours. On the ground are her hitomi-like familiars dancing away. Just like how these lights shift and intersect with each other, so do the magical girls constantly clash with each other. As a group, the quintet are scattered and prone to infighting. The fact they are represented with beams of light seems to reflect how thin and tenuous the bonds of these magical girls are.

Meanwhile the ground is filled with hitomis (well, klarissas but yknow). If we take the ground to represent the 'grounded' world, ie her non magical life, well that's been entirely taken over by a girl who's now dancing all over her chance at happiness. When it comes to her friend group, she has lost madoka to the other magical girls, and hitomi to romance. Essentially Oktavia is stuck between an unstable nebulous scattered world of magical girls, and a regular world that has no place for her.

I also feel like the large lantern on the ceiling strongly resembles a soul gem. Unlike in the main timeline where the revelation is what kicks off her emotional decline, in this timeline she learns it very late, when she was already close to her limit. Because she learns this fact so late, and also went into magical girling with slightly more skepticism compared to the main timeline, i feel like this Sayaka didn't experience as much of an identity breakdown, explaining Oktavia's overall lighter colours. However the fact this fixture quite literally hangs over her head like that definitely shows it was on her mind.

When Sayaka makes the decision to become a magical girl, mami is still alive. Unlike in the main timeline where she sees it as her moral duty to take up the mantle thats been left empty, in this timeline she isn't burdened by that. Rather, her decision to fight seems to be spurred on by the desire to protect Madoka- during the HN elly fight, we see her look homura in the eye, and decide she isn't someone she can rely on.

Overall while main timeline Oktavia seems to have been born from misery, timeline 3's Sayaka is much more motivated by anger. That's why she has 2 swords, and has a much more rock-like barrier. This Oktavia isn't born from a quiet tragedy and broken identity- this one's a girl on the warpath.

The throne Oktavia sits on is now yellow- perhaps because she blames mami for placing her into this position?

"You're going to tell me you just wish for other people's happiness? For nothing in return? (...) That's not how the world works."

Sayaka has become disillusioned with the ways of the world. She perceives all the 'hopes and dreams' stuff as nothing but a farce, that isn't how things actually work. I think it makes sense in this case that her barrier is a performance stage. When you look at the stage/background itself, it's actually quite a plain room- yet its being flashily blasted with lights and filled with neon quintet-coloured lasers. This whole magical girl things all just lights and spectacle, really.

Unlike in the main timeline where Madoka isn't a magical girl, in this one she is. Because of that she exists as a much more visible point of comparison for Sayaka, who still very much values being a hero of justice in this timeline. She SEES madoka happily embrace this thankless self-sacrificial existence and is deeply frustrated by her. Sayaka is upset that her wish to help Kyousuke went unnoticed and unappreciated, but this time round she has an example of someone who takes that reality well, someone who is happy to be a magical girl for the sake of it, and she feels her own dissatisfaction even more bitterly.

So yeah tldr: this timelines sayaka has more of a grasp of her own identity, and is motivated more by anger than sadness, leading to a louder, rock-ier barrier that reflects her eventual distrust of her entire friend group

[skunkes]

chilco

[dekusleftsock]

Something about motorcycles

[luminique]

okay guys. after a *checks the time* 10 hour school day, i was finally able to watch harumasa’s character demo and all i can say is that i have a few thoughts.

the bird we see in the beginning is a sign of an ethereal. it also symbolizes him in a sense, white feathers, very bright yellow eyes. the young boy we hear in the beginning is most definitely younger harumasa. the bird kept watch of him before flying away, making him wake up.

we find out that he has two scars? holes? on the side of his neck and his choker is used a cover. he fears he’d turn into an ethereal and relies on medication to keep himself in check.

it seems that he was heavily tested on as a child, as the only time the testing failed was when he was younger. this caused him to be shot in the neck to regain control over himself. this is also the only time we ever see him have heterochromia eye color (maybe his eyes turn a different color if he becomes an ethereal)

he wakes up again after having another nightmare of his past. it’s clear that he can’t just easily ignore the fact that he can become an ethereal, hence why his story states that it is a secret he holds within him that he cannot get over or leave behind. the mirror shatters and a flock of white birds with yellow eyes come flying right towards him but you can see that they carry the same green color as ethereals.

remember the bird in the beginning? maybe instead of flying away, it was flying towards the young boy. just like how harumasa was slowly walking towards the boy at the end and in his eyes, was slowly turning into an ethereal.

yeah thats it. i think i just stated like supremely obvious things but i look forward to finding out more about him. also his birthday is july 18th i think YIPEE HIM AND I ARE BOTH JULY BABIES

[n1ghtwr1ter]

At the end of my latest TLT reread and it’s been physically painful attempting to read the last 40+ pages of Nona. Like, the short shrift that Gideon/Kiriona gets given by the people in the story…the theoretical good guys who honestly only see her as a thing, as a means to an end with an inconvenient dead soul attached to it… It makes me want to rip my own heart out of my chest.

Nobody has cared about Gideon her whole life. Most people, in fact, if they remembered about her at all, went out of their way to tell her how much they wished she didn’t exist. In the final chapters of Gideon, she finally gets the thing she’s been desperate for her whole life: somebody telling her that they need her, they care that she exists, and they badly want her to go on doing it. This allows her to make peace with the prospect that at the ripe old age of 18, she needs to die so that that person can go on living and living and living, using the castrated remnants of her soul as fuel to do so. Not a great way to go, but at least Gideon would get to be useful to somebody, would get to be remembered for something.

And then she wakes up in the wrong body, and finds out that her sacrifice - her attempt to be useful in the most selfless way possible, in that her self will no longer exist - has been rejected. And not only that, but the person she tried to give herself to - the one who was supposed to care about her - went to extreme lengths to make completely sure that she no longer remembered about Gideon.

She literally cut Gideon out of her brain.

And now, drifting along in the worst sort of half life where she’s inhabiting her body but it’s no longer really hers, in very obvious fashion - there’s holes in it, her heart is missing, and it’s got her shitty father’s handprints all over it (not even touching how much of a violation that is), indelibly - she finally meets back up with the small group of people who could theoretically be relied upon to be glad to see her again.

But then the one who was supposed to care about her most tries to kiss her (massively OOC for Harrow), and turns out to not even be there - it’s some weird baby inhabiting her body, and doing a really shit job of it too. The rest of them won’t stop talking about how they need her to break into the Tomb - as if she was just another key, same as the ones they worked together to acquire in Canaan House, just bigger and more inconvenient - and/or how they both fucked and killed her mom, who also (surprise, surprise) wished that Gideon had never existed, but saw her as a thing that needed to be done for the good of the mission.

Ultimately, they all make it abundantly clear - Palamedes, Camilla, Pyrrha, and especially Nona, all these people who are supposed to be kind and good and right - that they would prefer she wasn’t there. That it just be her body, with no Gideon attached - at least not Gideon the way she is now, broken and rejected and miserable. They would all far have preferred that she not have her own inconvenient thoughts and feelings and desires and impulses - that she just be inanimate and let the important people, the grown ups, get things done.

They wish she didn’t exist. Same as everybody else in her life, save one, and now she’s left wondering whether Harrow really meant it at all. Because if she did, she wouldn’t have left Gideon to Kiriona’s fate.

And honestly? Really, truly? I know everybody in the fandom loves Pal and Cam and Nona and Pyrrha, but in the end I couldn’t give less of a shit about them. They are fucking side characters, and as intriguing as Nona has been from a worldbuilding standpoint, I ultimately resent having been forced to read 400+ pages of filler bullshit about fucking side characters. I am a butch, and I’m here for my sarcastic, loving, angry, vulnerable, forgiving, and yes, inconvenient sword butch. I’m here for Gideon. But Gideon has been fridged for the last two books of the series in which she is supposed to be a, if not the, main character.

And it feels like almost nobody else in the fandom feels the same way, which, fine. I’m used to that. I’m also used to being told I’m projecting; and I’m used to being told that I’m inconvenient too, in my thoughts and my opinions and the mere fact of my existence. I spent the first eighteen years of my life being told I was inconvenient. Yet another point of overidentification with Gideon.

But in case anybody still thinks that Nona proves that Gideon was an asshole all along, think about all of the above. Think about how it would make you feel to come back from not just death but from the erasure of your existence, something you chose in order to save the life of someone you loved, and be told that you’re inconvenient. Think about how you’d feel if you’d been told all your life that it would be better for everyone if you didn’t exist. And then tell me that Kiriona isn’t in the right and that I should give a rat’s ass what happens to literally anybody else.

It’s Kiriona Hours up in this House, butches. We’ve spent long enough caring about people who would prefer we weren’t around. For once in our entire lives we were told we were important; we were told we mattered; we were told we were the main character. We were going to, if not get the girl and save the world, at least get to do something real, something important, something like being the hero.

But that’s over now; we’re back to being wrong and bad and inconvenient thanks to the simple fact of our existence. So it’s time to embrace it. Let’s be a little shit. Let’s be kind of a dick. Let’s have our own agenda, let’s play our cards close to our heartless chest, let’s allow our circle of empathy to contract to ourselves and maybe one more person. That’s where I’m at right now. And I don’t see that changing anytime soon.

[topaz-carbuncle]

"To be loved is to be known" is a quote that I've been thinking about a lot recently, especially when it comes to how well that quote can work with garrus and Shepard's relationship. Both platonically and romantically.

Even before his romance, from the moment you recruit garrus, he's checking up on Shepard without any prompting. "Frankly, i'm more worried about you. Cerberus, Shepard?" He knows that Shepard wouldn't be working with them without a damn good reason, so he accepts whatever reason Shep has, instead choosing to voice his worries and rejoin Shepard as if those 2 years never happened. He trusts shepard enough to join a potentially dangerous workplace, knowing shepard would not allow anything to happen to him.

Not to mention that Shepard didn't exactly get to officially ask Garrus to join the crew, he just woke up in a new Normandy med bay and they both knew he would be there until the end. No Shepard without Vakarian, and all.

In mass effect 3, regardless of romance or bro/femshep, Garrus is the one to get Shepard to rest after Tuchanka. He knows that besides Earth, losing Mordin was the first personal hit that Shepard has taken since the war started. Being a pessimist, he is also more than aware that it won't be the last and that there's only so much that platitudes can do. So he does what he can, reassuring Shepard that he will keep an eye on things (unromanced) and will wake her (romanced) if anything happens. He knows the stress and burden that's been placed on her, so he does what he can to lessen it just enough to get a few hours of sleep.

My personal favourite romance scene in the 3rd game is the conversation with him after Thessia, despite Shepard's worsening mood when speaking to the crew post-mission, he continues as normal. He doesn't make a huge deal out of the mission and instead, Shepard is met with relief with the news about his family, critical thinking when discussing the call he made, then sharing her own thoughts before allowing herself to receive his comfort.

Garrus knows what Shepard needs in these circumstances, he's always there to give her the truth as well as to reassure her. "But humans want to save everyone. In this war, that's not going to happen." , "I tend to expect the worst, anyway." and "Before a certain turian with no romantic skills to speak of tries to cheer you up?"

He doesn't sugarcoat his thoughts, he doesn't downplay anything for her sake because he knows she needs someone to be that rock for her.

It goes both ways as well, especially if you view the outcomes of Garrus' loyalty as Shepard acting on behalf of what Garrus will need vs what he wants if you talk him down from taking the shot. Shepard knows that Garrus is standing on a thin line between getting justice for his team or acting out of revenge. She knows that shooting sidonis won't undo the hurt and will just be another body piled on top of it all, this time the blood actually being on his hands.

Or, if you prefer the renegade path, Shepard knows that Garrus needs to take out the final thing keeping him tied to Omega. That Garrus needs his team to be avenged so that he can stop carrying those souls with him and finally put them to rest.

It's such a brief discussion, but after recruiting him in me3, shepard is also very quick to ask about his family and then reassure him that they will be okay. After everything they have been through (not even just with the reapers) and all the losses they have collectively endured, she still doesn't hesitate to comfort him when it comes to his family.

I just love these two and their relationship so much

[silverview]

"I think we have got some sort of insight into it. Without just thinking, Oh, these people are mad. And they love something too much."

[godmonium]

Been thinking about Evil Morty... here are my thoughts it's all jabber it has no reason i was just writing things down

To me, Evil Morty sees himself as on a higher plane to other Mortys because he was able to notice the pattern of abuse he was going through and actually do something about it. To him, other Mortys are inferior for many reasons. Because they aren't smart, they are boot lickers, they appeal as much as they can to their Rick's, they live their lifes with their tails between their legs, blissfully ignorant in a system that destined to doom them from the moment they were made.

Infact, I'd go as far as to say Evil Morty doesn't even care about Other Mortys enough to have an opinion on them outside of them being Pathetic. He doesn't think about them, and when he does, it's with a quiet sort of loathing that solidifies the fact in his head that they are all just tools, and he escaped the toolbox. It's probably how he so easily tossed aside his morality and tortured them. He's just using them for what they were made for.

However it's not as if he wants to be praised for this fact. He's a "narcissist", but he's one with very little care what others think about him. He is self assured that he's better than everyone, he's so confident he doesn't need anyone else to lift him up or calm his insecurities. For some reason I think this makes him oddly terrifying?

Also, Evil Morty is extremely goal oriented. He has a plan, he follows through, and when it fails he just makes another even better plan. He doesn't stew in his misery and disappointment that everything went to shit, he just moves onto the next best thing. He has things to do, places to be, and he refuses to let himself be slowed down by other people unless they help him reach that goal.

[al-luviec]

For requests: could you draw TimeShadows (Krux x master of shadow)?? Pls!!! 🥺👀

running away with my head in my hands

[chock-and-bates]

no ok stripper au im OBSESSED. idek if this is what you were talking abt. but. the tension of it all. max so absolutely bricked up in the stripper room and you can’t have any of it. and then obvi need then fucking wild raw nasty style

exactly, babe, the tension

i just keep picturing things building and building.

like, during the strip club visits charles will give max a lap dance and listen to max beg him to take him back. charles always refuses, but also lets max get away with more and more with each visit (like max’s hands groping his ass during the dance, kissing up his neck, dirty talk in his ear about max would treat him so good, etc.), but they never go all the way and they’re both so unbelievably frustrated…

and when that tensions finally breaks… 👀

i want to write this so bad i’ve been watching stripper vlogs on youtube all night for research 😫

[nor3gertz]

I hate that some postal fans are a pure pain in the ass (i say as a postal fan btw) like, SOME PPL IN THE FANDOM ARE REALLY ANNOYING😭

Sometimes they act like a fun police non-ironically💔

Ive seen people in the fandom complain abt other games that are similar (mostly Hatred), only 4 being a bad game or even complaining abt ppl who like the game and is like ???? BRO LET PPL HAVE FUN did they kill ur grandma ur what

yea kinda but its their opinion i respect that. just dont like it when they force others to hate it as well.

it does get annoying if they keep saying postal 4 is ass because the game is still in development and while i admit postal 4's storyline is shit i dont think it deserves to be treated like it. the devs work so hard to make more games in the franchise and saying this as someone who has previously worked on a game final year project i understand how fucking tedious it is. im not a bootlicker or anything i just wishhhhhh people appreciate the devs' dedication to bring us more postal stuff yknow.

about the hatred game i dunno i never played it, but cmon, its still coming from those who have worked tirelessly for the game. sure its all up to each n everyone's taste if they like it or not but at least it was inspired from postal 1997 n they put their heart into making it. not every game is 100% unique n original. they have inspirations.

also maybe the people complaining about ppl who like the game are those who encounter other fans with polar opposites beliefs in things and that makes them fight each other idk wtf am i saying but yeah overall some parts of all fandoms always have these people, its easy to just enjoy the things ur way n not gaf about the discourse. live your life Born to die world is a fuck 鬼神 kill em all 1989 i am trash man 410,757,864,530 dea dcops

[milkayart]

a friend said estinien would be esko in finnish so

[abyssalzones]

actually I'm starting to think my 14 year old self was right